There is a quote that says “if you want God to open doors you best take your hands off the knob”. This is simply what is entails to let go and let God
As time went by early in the year I figured that all my disappointments were part of the real plan – God’s plan. What I saw as a setback turned out to be a necessity. I had to let go of my expectations and live in the reality. Realizing that you have done your best and accepting the things you can’t change is actually part of the progress plan. Progress is relative, So is success too.
On Progress – If the people around you are making progress with their life and it seems you are not, don’t be hard on yourself. It is not because you are a failure, its just the timing. Simply because they are your classmates or agemates does not mean they are your vision mates or dream mates. It took a special grace for me to understand this.
Unlike me I had started to plan the year in December 2016 but I had to scrap that…..lol ….well not entirely. One thing was obvious though – that the music had changed and so must my dance step. It was obvious that things had moved on and it was up to me to remain where i was or get on board. The world cannot pause for one second for anyone to catch up, so it will be in your interest to keep up with life rather than make excuses for why you did not make yours count. I had no choice.
On Finding peace – I gained a new perspective. In those times all I would do is try to understand the good about the situation instead of cry over spilled milk. And each time, I found something – a reason, to calm my fears and I was reassured that God is still at work. I found peace and everything started to make sense again.
When it looks like trouble is bursting out through the seams of your life, there is only one way to get it together. It is something that looks very silly to do but it works…seriously. Just rejoice in the Lord for everything. Here’s why- he is still God, the master planner, faithful and just, his promises are never changing, he has the power to keep your head up above troubled water and his joy is your strength. I found strength to get on with the rest of the year.
On Money – I had always wanted to do a student tutoring job in school but the way some of my naija folks kept asking me of when I will develop the tushed “phooneh” accent, I knew that my my students who were most likely going to be oyibo people will have a hard time understanding me. Since i would be having more time to myself, i decided to give the tutoring job a try. They did not give jobs to students on a leave of absence but God so kind, i got the job. Despite still feeling incapable to deliver, i went through the first day and it got better each time around till i was done.
If we base happiness on money then we will never be truly happy. If money will make our lives perfect then there will be no need to be more.
The pay was nothing to write home about but i was happy and fulfilled. Did i wish it paid more? YES! But everything is not about the money. If we base happiness on money then we will never be truly happy. If money will make our lives perfect then there will be no need to be more. Purpose is about being more as opposed to wanting more. There are lots of things one could do in this world to make too much money within a short while but in the end we are so poor that all we have is money. No true friendships, no life changing stories, unlovable personalities and no passions to pursue.
On Happiness – I learnt not to base my happiness on things i could easily lose but on things i could give myself for. My kids were alive and active, their little smiles touched my core. My family seemed more adorable than i ever imagined. Thoughtful friends and loved ones to encourage and share a good laugh with, favors from strangers and to strangers who became a source of strength, made me smile. This is how we stay sane in a crazy world.
Blogging started to make sense again. I kept stumbling on inspiring stories of other people and it became clearer and clearer what I was supposed to be doing with this space. I wanted people to be happy with their lives regardless.
To be continued…